Time away to come to acceptance

So after realizing that I was going to have to postpone my surgery due to lack of funds, it has taken a long time to get over the depression, the hurt, and the anger.

I am still dealing with the disappointment. I had all these "scenes" in my head. Me surprising my uppity aunts at the family reunion in July with my new skinnier self. Having a blast riding the roller coasters I've always wanted to ride but am too big to fit in the seats in at my favorite amusement park.

So the new year has dawned and so now I begin having to deal with the 6 month wait that is required with the new insurance.

After sending a copy of my new insurance card to the insurance specialist at the doctor's office, I discovered that all of the requirements that were required with the previous insurance (psych eval, 5 year history, meeting with the nutritionist) the only thing that I have to get/do is a 6 month doctor monitored weight loss "program" with documentation.

Since that is all I need I have booked the first appointment for Thursday. Hopefully the 6 months will go by as quickly as last year has gone.

My hope is that by July or August at the latest I will have my surgery and will start the fall of 2010 losing most of this weight.

Well, the journey is taking a little longer than I planned, but the journey is back on again.

An unexpected delay

So after getting excited and beginning to eat some of my favorite foods for the last time, on Monday I had a wrench thrown into my plans.

Unexpected and unforeseen events have caused me to delay my surgery until after the new year.

So I now have to start saving up the money to cover the 10% that my new insurance won't cover. It also means that I am looking to having the surgery in June or July of 2010 as from my understanding the new insurance requires a 6 month waiting period.

It is very hard for me not to be disappointed and a little depressed.

It also hard not to turn that disappointment and depression in to a grub fest. But I'm doing better than I thought I would be.

So the new me will have to wait for just a little while longer to appear.