Time away to come to acceptance

So after realizing that I was going to have to postpone my surgery due to lack of funds, it has taken a long time to get over the depression, the hurt, and the anger.

I am still dealing with the disappointment. I had all these "scenes" in my head. Me surprising my uppity aunts at the family reunion in July with my new skinnier self. Having a blast riding the roller coasters I've always wanted to ride but am too big to fit in the seats in at my favorite amusement park.

So the new year has dawned and so now I begin having to deal with the 6 month wait that is required with the new insurance.

After sending a copy of my new insurance card to the insurance specialist at the doctor's office, I discovered that all of the requirements that were required with the previous insurance (psych eval, 5 year history, meeting with the nutritionist) the only thing that I have to get/do is a 6 month doctor monitored weight loss "program" with documentation.

Since that is all I need I have booked the first appointment for Thursday. Hopefully the 6 months will go by as quickly as last year has gone.

My hope is that by July or August at the latest I will have my surgery and will start the fall of 2010 losing most of this weight.

Well, the journey is taking a little longer than I planned, but the journey is back on again.