An unexpected delay

So after getting excited and beginning to eat some of my favorite foods for the last time, on Monday I had a wrench thrown into my plans.

Unexpected and unforeseen events have caused me to delay my surgery until after the new year.

So I now have to start saving up the money to cover the 10% that my new insurance won't cover. It also means that I am looking to having the surgery in June or July of 2010 as from my understanding the new insurance requires a 6 month waiting period.

It is very hard for me not to be disappointed and a little depressed.

It also hard not to turn that disappointment and depression in to a grub fest. But I'm doing better than I thought I would be.

So the new me will have to wait for just a little while longer to appear.

The waiting game

I have determined that the waiting game is starting to get to me.

The waiting for the final doctor's appointment.

The waiting for the insurance approval.

The waiting for the date of the surgery.

I am ready for this. I have gotten all the necessary items done that I need to get done. Now I wait.

Now it is in someone else's hands.

My doctor's appointment was supposed to have been this Wednesday. It got pushed back to next Wednesday.

I am trying to remain positive and keep imagining myself skinnier. Imagining me riding all the rides I currently can't ride at my favorite amusement park.

Imagining the possible different life that this surgery is going to bring to me.

But I can also imagine my disappointment if I find out that I need to wait another 6 months due to the change in insurance.

I don't know if I can wait until the 16th.