The waiting game

I have determined that the waiting game is starting to get to me.

The waiting for the final doctor's appointment.

The waiting for the insurance approval.

The waiting for the date of the surgery.

I am ready for this. I have gotten all the necessary items done that I need to get done. Now I wait.

Now it is in someone else's hands.

My doctor's appointment was supposed to have been this Wednesday. It got pushed back to next Wednesday.

I am trying to remain positive and keep imagining myself skinnier. Imagining me riding all the rides I currently can't ride at my favorite amusement park.

Imagining the possible different life that this surgery is going to bring to me.

But I can also imagine my disappointment if I find out that I need to wait another 6 months due to the change in insurance.

I don't know if I can wait until the 16th.