Another reason for the surgery...but one I tend to forget about.

So the past week I had a reminder. A not very good reminder.

Deep inside I always know that I am fat. Even though I try to imagine myself not fat. There are the little reminders, such as being able to sit in a seat and not having the arms of the chairs cutting into my hips or thighs.

This past week it was a snide comment that someone said that I ended up taking offense to. Even though that comment was not directed at me personally, I still felt it as a blow to my confidence.

I am one of those many people who post tweets on Twitter. Just for fun, I follow some celebrities. There are several celebrities on Twitter, all at various stages/levels of celebrity. The celebrity in question is not a "big" national celebrity but depending on what type of music you listen to, would determine if you know this person or not.

Part of the thing that makes this comment shocking and unbelievable is the fact that before this celebrity became well known he/she made a living as a personal trainer. A personal trainer. As in someone who helps fat people become healthier and thinner.

This person posted a picture of a fat person at a grocery store. She was wearing a short white skirt and the wrong type of underwear. She was bending down to pick something up from a bottom shelf. Unfortunately for this person, she was bending at the waist to pick up the item rather than ladylike bending at the knees.

Now I had seen the picture before. It had come in a email about rednecks or the people of Walmart. When I get them and kinda chuckle at them and hope to God I never get spotted doing something like that and then move on.

Had the celebrity posted the picture and made no comment I would have been fine. The celebrity had posted funny pictures on his/her Twitter account before. Put he/she didn't stop at that. Nope, he/she had to make a snide comment as well.

The comment was "this is why I don't shop at Kroger anymore. They tend to be smaller at Whole Foods."

It's thoughtless, mean comments like this that cause us "big" people to have lack of self confidence and just feel even more like shit.

The thing about it was, if it had been a picture of a black, or Asian, or Latino person, it would be considered racism. But because it was just a snide comment against a fat person, society seems to think that it's okay.

Back in the late 19th and early 20th century, a woman with curves was considered the most desirable. Even Marilyn Monroe wore a size 14 I've heard. When did society deem a woman with curves undesirable? When did stick thin girls become the preferred standard of what is considered beautiful, sexy and desirable?

** In the process of writing this post I happened to go back to that celebrity's twitter site and he/she had removed the offensive picture and tweet. Guess my little rant about his/her meanness and rudeness hit the mark!